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Primeval fic: Scar Tissue (Second Life verse)

August 13th, 2012 (09:53 pm)
worried

feeling: worried

Title: Scar Tissue

Disclaimer: I do not own Primeval; lena7142 created Feral Stephen.

A/N: More in the Continued Adventures of Feral Stephen. With thanks to lena7142 as always. If you haven’t picked up on it, she basically wins at life.

Summary: Everyone else found Stephen’s scars to be a walking conversation starter.

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Most scars you could see, and Stephen sported his with indifference. Over the months since Stephen’s return, Cutter had seen the younger man’s scar tissue more than he wanted to, a constant reminder of just what he’d endured.

Cutter chose to look away when he could, but everyone else found Stephen’s scars to be a walking conversation starter.

“Would you look at that one!” Connor exclaimed, pointing to a twisted one under Stephen’s arm and down his back as they changed after a messy run-in with an anomaly.

Cutter glanced at it, hurriedly looking away as he toweled himself off and found his own shirt. His own scars from the future predator were almost faded now, but sometimes the skin still felt tight when he took a deep breath in the cold.

Nose scrunched, Stephen lifted his arm to look at it. Then he shrugged. “Some kind of predator,” he said. “It went too fast to make out exactly what it was.”

Connor’s eyes bugged. “You have scars from creatures you can’t even name!” he said, plainly awestruck. “What about that one?”

He pointed to a jagged gouge in Stephen’s bicep.

“Something took a bite out of me,” Stephen replied, rummaging around in his bag for a clean shirt.

“And what did you do?” Connor asked, clearly enthralled.

Stephen sniffed a shirt, considered it passable and looked at Connor in all seriousness. “I bit it back,” he said.

Connor stared, as if waiting for the punchline. Then he snorted before laughing again. “You’re serious.”

Stephen put on his shirt. “It didn’t taste very good,” he said.

Connor laughed again. “So tell me,” he said. “Which one is your favourite?”

Stephen regarded him sceptically, hesitating for just a moment. And in that moment, Cutter saw the scars -- the old ones, the fresh ones, the deep gash he’d suffered while trying to protect Cutter and save the future.

But he saw more than that. He saw the years of pain and isolation, of self-loathing and recrimination. He saw a man who had endured everything and survived. A man who still dreamed of predators and prey and Helen bloody Cutter.

Stephen’s face went blank just as fast as he picked up his bag, slinging it over his shoulder. “None of them,” he said frankly. “Scars are mistakes. I don’t like to be reminded of my mistakes.”

With that, he walked out. There was no malice in his tone, just cold weariness that left Connor gaping in his wake.

“He’s like a superhero,” Connor said. “Only way cooler.”

Cutter smiled but didn’t reply, still watching the door where Stephen had left. He wondered about the scars; not just what caused them but how well they really healed. How long would the marks last? How much would the scar tissue hurt? Were they reminders he’d never leave behind? Because most scars you could see.

The ones you couldn’t, on the other hand, were the deepest ones of all.

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Posted by: goldarrow (goldarrow)
Posted at: August 14th, 2012 03:35 am (UTC)

*sighs happily*
Really, really love these.

"Stephen sniffed a shirt, considered it passable "
*snorfle* - Maybe to him...

"Scars are mistakes. I don’t like to be reminded of my mistakes"
Aw, poor Stephen!

"The ones you couldn’t, on the other hand, were the deepest ones of all."
Oh, yes yes yes.

"But he saw more than that. He saw the years of pain and isolation, of self-loathing and recrimination. He saw a man who had endured everything and survived. A man who still dreamed of predators and prey and Helen bloody Cutter."
That was an amazing word-picture. Lovely!

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: August 16th, 2012 03:00 am (UTC)
stephen cutter distance

It's really gratifying that people are enjoying these! I fell pretty hard for feral Stephen, so I'm glad I'm doing him justice.

Thank you!

Posted by: goldarrow (goldarrow)
Posted at: August 16th, 2012 03:17 am (UTC)

Posted by: kristen_mara (kristen_mara)
Posted at: August 14th, 2012 03:54 am (UTC)
Drools


A great look at Stephen's scars and the attitudes towards them. He certainly is cooler than a superhero!

LOL for the 'I bit back' and hugs for the deepest scars

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: August 16th, 2012 03:01 am (UTC)
stephen smiles

This Stephen is an interesting balance of humor and angst. Which makes him quite fun to write.

Thanks!

Posted by: joshinator (joshinator)
Posted at: August 14th, 2012 05:35 am (UTC)
Racoon World


“He’s like a superhero,” Connor said. “Only way cooler.”

That's classic Connor. Great story

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: August 16th, 2012 03:02 am (UTC)
stephen cutter

Connor is quite lovable. I'm glad he sounds in character!

Thanks!

Posted by: flaccidduck (flaccidduck)
Posted at: August 14th, 2012 05:48 am (UTC)
Jenny/Claudia

I so want to hug feral Stephen.

This is fabulous

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: August 16th, 2012 03:02 am (UTC)
stephen goodbye

He could definitely use a hug, but he may not accept one just yet.

Thanks!

Posted by: freddiejoey (freddiejoey)
Posted at: August 14th, 2012 06:00 am (UTC)
Connor fingers crossed

Wonderful story-telling. The dialogue is fantastic.

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: August 16th, 2012 03:03 am (UTC)
stephen cutter

Aw, thank you so much!

Posted by: clea2011 (clea2011)
Posted at: August 14th, 2012 07:23 am (UTC)
Stephen

Ooh very good. And bless Connor and his admiration.

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: August 16th, 2012 03:03 am (UTC)
feral stephen

I can't really blame Connor. Feral Stephen is quite impressive.

Thanks!

Posted by: lukadreaming (lukadreaming)
Posted at: August 14th, 2012 09:04 am (UTC)
Stephen bruise

Very stark little scene - and some good dialogue!

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: August 16th, 2012 03:04 am (UTC)
stephen blue wonder

I'm glad you liked it. Thanks!

Posted by: squeezynz (squeezynz)
Posted at: August 14th, 2012 09:08 am (UTC)

"Scars are mistakes. I don’t like to be reminded of my mistakes"

what a sublime line....pure gold.

*gulp* all that scarring, inside and out....Poor Stephen.

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: August 16th, 2012 03:05 am (UTC)
stephen cutter

Stephen has a lot of stories to tell, not that he'd been keen on telling them.

Thanks :)

Posted by: judithjohn (judithjohn)
Posted at: August 14th, 2012 10:42 am (UTC)
Jenny - cori

Terrific fic. I look forward to this 'verse every time.

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: August 16th, 2012 03:05 am (UTC)
stephen cutter sit

That's great! Especially since there are more fics to come.

Thanks!

Posted by: natchris (natchris)
Posted at: August 14th, 2012 11:30 am (UTC)
Wolfbane

A moving story to match your handsome icon!!

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: August 16th, 2012 03:06 am (UTC)
feral stephen

I need to make some more feral Stephen icons. I'll need to rustle up some more pics for it first, though :)

Thanks!s

Posted by: Lena7142 (lena7142)
Posted at: August 14th, 2012 12:08 pm (UTC)
feral stephen

This is a short fic, and every word of it is perfect. It's poignant, it has some humor, it's a beautiful little character study... you always amaze me. :)

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: August 16th, 2012 03:06 am (UTC)
feral stephen

You are always too kind. Anything good about this fic is all because of you anyway :)

Thanks!

Posted by: aunteeneenah (aunteeneenah)
Posted at: August 14th, 2012 12:58 pm (UTC)

So well done. One of the things I like about feral!Stephen is he just accepts things. It seems he isn't crazy about Connor's questions but he answers them because he sees (maybe more clearly than others) what's inside a person. He sees Connor means no disrespect but he also only lets them go so far and still won't let them in. Will he change when that happens? hmmmm, I wonder. Love this 'verse.

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: August 16th, 2012 03:08 am (UTC)
stephen skeptical

Feral Stephen does have some interesting quirks -- he's so matter of fact about a lot of things. Social interaction is not his forte for obvious reasons, but I imagine he needs the team more than he might admit right now. And eventually he'll have to realize it :)

Thanks!

Posted by: nietie (nietie)
Posted at: August 14th, 2012 01:31 pm (UTC)
Sad

Ooh, great chapter and so true! *hugs Stephen and Cutter*

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: August 16th, 2012 03:09 am (UTC)
stephen cutter sit

They could use the hugs, even if Stephen's not so inclined to accept :)

Thanks!

Posted by: fredbassett (fredbassett)
Posted at: August 14th, 2012 03:04 pm (UTC)
Stephen - pretty face

Great look at Stephen's relationshipwith his own past here.

And I adored the bit where he sniffs the shirt. *g*

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: August 16th, 2012 03:10 am (UTC)
stephen skeptical

I have a certain fondness for Stephen's personal habits. Or rather, the lack thereof.

Thanks!

Posted by: reggietate (reggietate)
Posted at: August 14th, 2012 07:05 pm (UTC)
scampiscorpions

That's very revealing. Stephen's come a long way in a short space of time, and he's doing pretty well, but he's still got a long way to go. I'm sure Cutter will help him get there :-)

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: August 16th, 2012 03:10 am (UTC)
stephen up

He does have a ways to go, and I expect there'll be some bumps along the way :)

Thanks!

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