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Chaos ficlet: Playing to Win

September 8th, 2011 (03:36 pm)
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Title:  Playing to Win

Disclaimer:  Not mine.

A/N:  This isn’t my fault.  eviinsanemonkey wanted Casey as a bad guy with the lyrics (included below) of Adele’s Set Fire to the Rain.  So yeah.  Blame her!  Much thanks to moogsthewriter for helping me clarify the ending and catching some of my typos and random nonsense.

Warning:  Possible character death.  Maybe?  You’ll have to decide when you read it.

Summary:  Casey doesn’t lose.  Not even a little.  Not even at all.

-o-

But there's a side to you
That I never knew, never knew.
All the things you'd say
They were never true, never true,
And the games you play
You would always win, always win.


-o-

This has been Casey’s plan since the beginning:  infiltrate the CIA, gain power and respect, use said power and respect to leak secrets to his employer while easily diverting suspicion from himself and continually compromising CIA ventures and American interests at home and abroad.

Casey has never wavered from it.  At first, people are wary of him, but after so many successful missions, he’s dubbed the human weapon, and people take his secretive and standoffish behavior as simply part of the package.  Someone so deadly wouldn’t be careless with their emotions, and everyone, from the janitor to Director Higgins himself, is simply glad Casey is on their side.

Except Casey’s not on their side.  Casey’s never been on their side and that has always been abundantly clear to him.  His coworkers are mostly forgettable, but the ones he trusts in the field are more like convenient assets.

At least, that’s what he tells himself.

That’s why he never leaks intel that might risk them.  He needs them to hold his cover.  Working with them, he has three reliable and irrefutable character witnesses who will literally die fighting to protect him.

This has worked for him for twelve years.  He plans on letting it work for as many more as he can milk it for.

For the money, of course.  And for the slow dismantling of a government too large to be controlled otherwise.


Not for the friendships, because they aren’t friends.  Casey has no illusions in this.

So really, he’s not sure why it’s so hard to pull the trigger.

After all, Billy’s hands are up and his posture is, at best, defensive.  He shakes his head, and he’s more disappointed than afraid.  “I just want to know why, mate,” he says.

Casey snarls because he is angry.  Angry that Billy followed him to his latest intel drop, angry that Billy put it together.  Angry that Billy has compromised everything and that now Casey has no choice but to kill him.  “Because America is a blight on the rest of the world,” he says.  “My goal is to fight injustice and control abuse, of which the USA is fraught.”

Billy inclines his head.  “I’m with you on that one,” he says.  “Our goals are not so different--”

Casey glares.  “Don’t play that game with me,” he says.  “Because I can play it better, and I will win.”

Billy laughs a little.  “You’re the one with the gun,” he says.  “So I reckon you’re already the winner if you want to be.”

“It’s not a question of want,” Casey says, hissing violently.  “It’s a question of necessity.  This agency we work for has commissioned murders, has aided and abetted criminals.”

“Compromises are necessary sometimes,” Billy relents.  “We still do good work.”

“That’s because we pick and choose our missions,” Casey snaps.  “But we’re still part of a system that is defective, a system that is diseased, one that will destroy this nation and the world if left unchecked.”

“So you fancy yourself a hero, then?” Billy asks, with bemused sarcasm.

Casey’s face darkens as he readjusts his aim, releasing the safety.  “I believe in playing for the winning team,” he says.  “At all costs.”

Billy nods, his expression sober.  “All costs,” he agrees.  “So I guess that means you’ll be pulling the trigger, then.”

Billy is calling his bluff.  Billy is looking at him, looking into him, trying to see what Casey’s really made of.  Because Billy thinks that Casey isn’t as certain as he sounds.  Billy believes that Casey really does want to do the right thing and that the right thing may not be what he thought it was.  Billy actually thinks they’re friends and that that friendship matters to Casey.

But Billy’s wrong.

Billy has to be wrong.

And yet, Casey’s hand is trembling; tears sting at his eyes.  It’s been twelve years.  Twelve long years, and he’s never thought twice, never stopped to reconsider.

So why start now?  Why start in this alley when all he has to do is pull the trigger and walk away?

Why?

Because Casey doesn’t lose.  Not even a little.  Not even at all.

Of course, that means Casey has to decide which game he’s really playing.  Double agent, working both angles for international and personal benefit.  Or double agent, finally coming clean, accepting the friends and honor he doesn’t deserve.

Pulling the trigger and walking away, leaving behind someone who called him friend and took bullets in his place.

Or sacrificing all he’s worked for and betraying the people who have made him the person he is.

In the end, it’s not a hard choice to make--it’s one that’s been twelve years in the making--and as Casey leaves the alley that night, he doesn’t have to look back.

Comments

Posted by: lukadreaming (lukadreaming)
Posted at: September 8th, 2011 08:48 pm (UTC)
Casey

Ooh, the ambiguous ending works very nicely!

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: September 8th, 2011 08:55 pm (UTC)
chaos team 2

It was way harder than it should have been to figure out how to keep it ambiguous :)

Thanks!

Posted by: Evil Insane Monkey (eviinsanemonkey)
Posted at: September 8th, 2011 08:50 pm (UTC)

oh, wow.
this is so Casey!
Great job!!

(you're up :D)

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: September 8th, 2011 08:57 pm (UTC)
billy earnest

The hardest part was figuring out which way to take him, so ambiguous seemed to be the best route.

(Billy going home. Which can go like fifty ways.)

Posted by: Evil Insane Monkey (eviinsanemonkey)
Posted at: October 13th, 2011 11:36 am (UTC)

there you are! Sorry that took so long!

Posted by: Walking Liability (asemic)
Posted at: September 8th, 2011 09:31 pm (UTC)

Oh, bless you two for your prompts. Seriously, this is one of my favorite fics I've read in this fandom. He's ambiguous enough to follow this path. Also, Casey's got this zealous streak in him. ♥

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: September 9th, 2011 12:37 pm (UTC)
chaos team moves

I'm so glad you liked it! I admit, the prompting is a lot of fun for me because it gets me to write things I would never think of otherwise and sometimes the results are interesting :) Thanks!

Posted by: fara (farad)
Posted at: September 9th, 2011 10:08 am (UTC)
Vin - hand

OOHH _ what a wickedc - but brilliant - ending! Nicely done! and good view of Casey; he's just ... hard enough in the show that it could work that way. I love it. That would be a really interesting longer story, too - what it Michael actually knew?

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: September 9th, 2011 12:38 pm (UTC)
billy considers

The ending was hard to write, so I'm glad it paid off :) And my mind has toyed with the idea of a longer fic around this, but my mind has toyed with about fifteen billion fic ideas, so we'll see :)

Thanks!

Posted by: fara (farad)
Posted at: September 9th, 2011 04:49 pm (UTC)
Vin over his shoulder

I'm looking forward to more - either of this, or whatever other plot bunnies you have! Yea!

Posted by: nietie (nietie)
Posted at: September 17th, 2011 11:01 am (UTC)
Chaos

The ambiguous ending is brilliant.
Whatever decision Casey made, he has to live with it for the rest of his life and for now he thinks he made the right one.

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: September 20th, 2011 01:18 am (UTC)
casey general dislike

In my mind, I still don't know which way I think he'd really go.

Thanks!

Posted by: sophie_deangirl (sophie_deangirl)
Posted at: January 5th, 2012 07:22 pm (UTC)
LOVE this novel idea

Wow, this was a great twist and though in a humorous way, I can see Casey as a double agent just because of his demeanor and general dislike for mankind, I also can totally see how being with the ODS, Billy in particular would have him question his alliances. Also, I love that your story pits Casey against of all of the ODS, Billy, a man who is devoutly patriotic and the complete extreme of Casey in that he believes in mankind and ergo, Casey. Just a really cool and unique angle.

Fav Part:

Billy is calling his bluff. Billy is looking at him, looking into him, trying to see what Casey’s really made of. Because Billy thinks that Casey isn’t as certain as he sounds. Billy believes that Casey really does want to do the right thing and that the right thing may not be what he thought it was. Billy actually thinks they’re friends and that that friendship matters to Casey.

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: January 6th, 2012 01:15 pm (UTC)
Re: LOVE this novel idea
billy likes

Once I got the prompt, I had a lot of fun writing it. Really, if I had infinite amounts of time, it would be interesting to write out the longer fic around this. I especially like your thoughts about why Billy is the ideal choice to challenge Casey on this. The aftermath would be interesting to write, even though I do like my ambiguity here :)

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