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Avengers Fic: The Long Fall Back to Earth (1/1)

May 2nd, 2013 (06:15 am)
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Title: The Long Fall Back to Earth

Disclaimer: I do not own the Avengers.

A/N: Happy birthday to moogsthewriter. She deserves much more than this, but this is what I have to offer. Based loosely on her prompt: “and as the world comes to an end / I'll be here to hold your hand / 'cause you're my king and I'm your lionheart“ from the song Lionheart by Of Monsters and Men. Beta provided by postfallen.

Summary: The thing is, Tony’s not really a hero.



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The thing is, Tony's not really a hero. Sure, he'll play the part of a superhero, but really he just likes the super part. The whole hero schtick -- well, it's not all that interesting. It's noble and brave and all that, but if Tony knows anything, it's that noble and brave are the best traits of the dead.

Tony doesn't want to die. He's come too close too many times to be a martyr for anyone's cause. He's not Bruce Banner, trying to make amends. He's not Clint Barton or Natasha Romanov, doing their jobs. He's not Thor, who has a personal stake in this. And he's sure as hell not Steve Rogers, donning the red, white, and blue like it actually matters.

Part of this is a power trip. He's the one who can do this after all. He's in a group of super heroes, but none of them are super like he is.

It has to be him.

Tony goes up with the worst of motivations.

But when the nuke explodes, when the mothership destructs, Tony starts to realize maybe he was wrong.

Yes, this is his job. But it's not just because he's super.

It's because he's a hero.

He has as much to prove as Bruce; he accepts this task like Clint and Natasha. He has something to lose in all this, and she didn't even answer her phone. And he's laying himself down on a grenade just like Mr. Red-White-and-Blue himself.

When the power in his suit gives way, he catches, and for a moment, he's suspended.

In that moment, he hates it. He hates it. He hates that he let this happen; that he let himself become this. He hates that he never got to see Pepper again, that he never got to say goodbye. He hates that he didn't have a better plan, that he didn't think of a better exit strategy.

But he doesn't hate it enough to regret it.

And then he's falling, weightless and hard, slipping back through space with a velocity he can't control. The lights are dimming; his strength is fading. There's nothing left.

Just the long fall back to earth.

Just a hard impact with reality.

He thinks of Bruce and of Clint and Natasha. He thinks of Thor, and he thinks of Steve. He thinks of Nick Fury and Coulsen and everyone else on that damn boat. He thinks of Pepper.

And it's okay.

This time, it's really okay. Because this time Tony doesn't feel so super, but he's never felt more heroic in his life.

Comments

Posted by: gypsy_atavari (gypsy_atavari)
Posted at: May 2nd, 2013 01:09 pm (UTC)

Very nice. I can actually see Tony Stark have this inner dialogue :-)

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: May 6th, 2013 02:18 am (UTC)
happy john

I'm glad it's in character! It's been a while since I've watched the movie :)

Thanks!

Posted by: Moogs (moogsthewriter)
Posted at: May 2nd, 2013 02:57 pm (UTC)
Avengers - Ironman

OH MY WORD THE TONY FEELS I HAVE RIGHT NOW. GOOD NIGHT WOMAN, HOW DO YOU PUT SO MUCH EMOTION IN SO FEW WORDS???

Love, love, LOVE this, as evidenced by my all caps feels. :D Now this makes me even more excited for the IM3 premiere tonight so I can have even more Tony feels.

Thank you for this lovely, lovely gift. Off to read the next! :D (You really are too kind to me.)

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: May 6th, 2013 02:20 am (UTC)
happy rick

Aw, I'm just glad it's in character! I'm still inexperienced enough in this fandom that it's hard to tell.

I really hope you had a wonderful birthday :)

Posted by: Flute (sgflutegirl)
Posted at: May 2nd, 2013 04:43 pm (UTC)
Avengers - Iron Man

Love this! I can totally see Tony thinking these things in that moment.

Also, Yay!! You wrote Avengers fic!! That's pretty much all I'm reading these days, and I just recently wrote my first one.

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: May 6th, 2013 02:22 am (UTC)
happy Shawn

I only dabble with Avengers upon request. I do love those characters, though. I can definitely see the appeal of the fandom. I'll have to check yours out!

Thanks :)

Posted by: kristen_mara (kristen_mara)
Posted at: May 4th, 2013 01:21 am (UTC)
Grand


Love this look into Tony's thoughts! He's definitely an intriguing, complicated man and you capture that well

In the movie I loved how the Hulk saved him then seemed to think "Eww, what did I just do?"

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: May 6th, 2013 02:23 am (UTC)
arthur smile

All of the heroes in that movie are so interesting. Tony snark is such a fun tone to write in, though :)

Thanks!

Posted by: sophie_deangirl (sophie_deangirl)
Posted at: May 4th, 2013 03:37 pm (UTC)

I love this look into Tony's thoughts right after the bomb destroys the ship and he falls to earth. There's a sense of a fallen angel image that comes to mind and your take of his POV reflects beautifully how his mindset is altered in his heroic act.

Fave part:

The thing is, Tony's not really a hero. Sure, he'll play the part of a superhero, but really he just likes the super part. The whole hero schtick -- well, it's not all that interesting. It's noble and brave and all that, but if Tony knows anything, it's that noble and brave are the best traits of the dead.

Tony doesn't want to die. He's come too close too many times to be a martyr for anyone's cause. He's not Bruce Banner, trying to make amends. He's not Clint Barton or Natasha Romanov, doing their jobs. He's not Thor, who has a personal stake in this. And he's sure as hell not Steve Rogers, donning the red, white, and blue like it actually matters.

-- I love this because it's typical cynical Tony which compares well with his change of thought as he plummets to earth. Lovely!

Posted by: do i dare or do i dare? (faye_dartmouth)
Posted at: May 6th, 2013 02:24 am (UTC)
happy rick

The birthday girl is a huge Tony fan, so I tried to do him justice.

Thanks!

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